Date : Saturday, July 5, 2008
Well woke up around 11am today , then had tuition . After that Went to Meet Nigel and Qiuang . We headed off the Expo for A church Service and that church is called City Harvest . Well meet a few friends there . Andrea , Matthew , JunJie , Christopher , Shi ling , Susan and some others which i can't vaguely remember their names . So had service , Deliverance , and some other stuff . The people there was different from what I see outside they're indescribable by words though , So its was quite an eye opener though . I can hear people suddenly screaming , shouting and crying , to me it was nothing as I'm not really suprised as we're in a church thats how people get rid of their inner demons so wasn't really suprised or shocked . Somehow I felt that what the reverend said makes lots of sense . He was emphasizing on the emotion called dissapointment , Yes dissapointment is part of life where life lessons are learned and experiences are gained making us a better person or a worse person it all depends all how we react to it . Some people endure the resentment , bitterness and hatred in their hearts sealing them away in a deep abyss in their hearts , surrounding their heart with an impenatrable wall that not being able to open up to other people . Not all people can surpassed their emotions . So I not even sure weather i believe in god . To me christianity is a religion but the those christian out there is reality . Well I'm not sure what to believe in because right now I only believe in myself and the things I set out to do . So that's about the church thing . Well I 'm a bit enlightened though after what the Reverend preach .Finished around 8pm and after that went out with Nigel and Qiuang to have dinner and we went to slack . Slack for a hour before headed back home . On the way home I have this thought in my mind . Is god true or just a delusional belief ? He most probably does not have a physical form but to other people god in is their hearts and mind . God is part of them . But after sometime I just believe in myself as we reap what we sowed We shouldn't count on God so much but we should definitely count on ourselves and God will only help those who help themselves . So that's pretty much about it bout today . Ciao !
Baby,top. || 11:33 PM
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